Wake up in the middle of the night,
Feeling miserable ,I observe everything
Now i realise when i am upset ,it doesnt affect much on him at all .
I know how much the impact can falls on him ,not that much actually .
I feel like i am been taken for granted for certain things .
Saying something nasty to him which i dont wish to but he will never understand if i dont phrase it in that way .
Forcing myself to change 360 degree when you piss me off ,i try to stay myself calm .
Now i think , I blame myself for something, from the begining till now.
I would want to know , what can i do so that i can make him to see a clearer vision why am i reacting this way?
Giving up explaining because after so much talking for the previous few "sessions" afterall he still wouldnt understand why . I am not a good pretender for something like i am angry yet i have to react normally
I clearly know that he still cares for me , but why things still happen ?
I am sorry .
After so much things , my love is still him
Labels: A distance
